:: masih ::

kita masih mencari sesuatu yang tak pasti,

sesuatu yang tak tentu milik kita,

sesuatu yang tak dijanjikan untuk kita,

dan kita masih lagi berhempas pulas mencari,

kerana percaya kita punya kekuatan.

Malaysian woman fails to reverse Muslim conversion

AP - Wednesday, August 4

KUALA LUMPUR, Malaysia – A Malaysian woman lost a court battle Wednesday to nullify her conversion to Islam when she was a child, but vowed to fight on to be recognized as a Hindu.
The interfaith dispute could further anger non-Muslims who have long complained that their religious rights are being sidelined in Muslim-majority Malaysia, and may erode minority support for the government.
Malaysia's secular High Court ruled it had no jurisdiction to hear the case as Banggarma Subramaniam is a Muslim and should refer to the Islamic Shariah court, said her lawyer Gooi Hsiao Leung.
Banggarma has said she and her three siblings were under the care of a government orphanage in northern Penang state when she was converted to Islam by welfare officials in 1989 when she was seven years old.
She ran away when she was 16 and got married two years later in 2001 in a traditional Hindu ceremony. When she returned to the home to collect her identity card and other documents, she was given the Muslim conversion certificate which listed her name as Siti Hasnah Vanga-rama Abdullah.
She has been unable to register her marriage or name her husband as the father of their two children in their birth certificates as she is listed a Muslim. Banggarma's husband must convert to Islam to legally wed her as marriage between Muslims and non-Muslims is not allowed in the country.
Banggarma said she was disappointed with the court ruling and planned to take the case to the Appeals Court.
"Why must I be forced to accept Islam?" Banggarma said. "I was born an Indian, a Hindu and I remain so until I die. They have no rights over me."
The welfare department claims Banggarma was converted in 1983 by her father and that she must go to the Shariah court to verify her status.
Gooi, however, said her conversion certificate was dated 1989 and that under Penang Islamic laws, minors below 18 cannot be converted to Islam without the consent of their parents.
Malaysia has a dual court system with civil courts for non-Muslims and Shariah courts for Muslims. In interfaith disputes involving Islam, the Shariah courts typically get the last word, which has upset non-Muslims who fear they cannot get justice in such courts.
If she renounces Islam, Banggarma risks being charged with apostasy, which in Malaysia _ as in many Islamic nations _ is regarded as a crime punishable by fines and jail sentences. Offenders are often sent to prison-like rehabilitation centers.
Minorities are increasingly becoming worried that their rights have become subordinate to those of ethnic Malay Muslims, who form nearly 60 percent of Malaysia's 28 million people.
The unhappiness over racial discrimination erupted in an unprecedented street protest three years ago by tens of thousands of ethnic Indians. The demonstration emboldened the minorities into voting against the government, which returned to power with its worst performance ever in the March 2008 general elections

:: tak sihat laaa ::

demam yang tak berapa best.. bz dan tak sempat nk update blog setiap hari... bernasib baik minggu ni cuti sampai isnin... ohh selamat hari ulang tahun singapore... -_-"    ... pinggang sakit ya ampun.. nk baring pun payah.. demam ni pula buat kepala rasa fenin dan berpusing, jumaat lepas hampir pitam otw alik umah.. keletetihan mungkin...tekak rasa pahit gila.. macam nk mamam yang manis like cendol ke? tapi suara pun dah tak ada ni.. haihhh.. ramadhan hampir tiba.. selamat berpuasa buat semua teman-teman..

alangkah best nya if ada dekat umah at kampung now.. buleh mamam mak masak.. tak adalah hari-hari nk mamam tiger cookies ngn horlick if tak ada selera mamam nasi..

:: kehidupan sebagai masyarakat bank ::

adalah sangat susah... huhhhhhhhh.. fenin dan juga gubra memikirkan betapa banyak nya rules yang perlu diaplikasi.. haaiihhh.. frankly semalam sudah gagal dalam topic consumer banking product.. hanya laa  kurang 1 point untuk pass ke markah lulus.. hooohh.. maka on tuesday perlu retake lg... datang awal on tuesday at 8am hanya kerana perlu revise this topic.. (itu adalah sangat tidak best) ... dalam masa 16 hari training ada 16 topic untuk learn.. hohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.. 1 hari 1 topic!! file yang demoks and tebal itu mmg berjaya buat me nebes and maha gubra...

:: hari pertama mula bertugas ::

wooohhh.. hari yang ditunggu telah tiba jua.. bangun pagi dengan penuh semangat. set alarm kul 5.30am, but 5.00am dah terjaga.. batapa semangat nya me... harap-harap buleh bangun like this after ni la... -_-"  .. bangun pagi gosok gigi minum kopi... hooooho.. but me tak minum coffe la.. me minum ho ho ho holick... ngn biskut tiger, supaya ada tenaga nanti (macam iklan dalam tv tu -_-" .. ) humm training mula pukul 9am at DBS ASIA HUB..me akan training for whole month antil 30 ogos and will start my job as customer service executive at POSB Heartland mall.. weeeeehooo... sudah mula bekerja and sudah laa buleh bershuping semula...  hummm... sila wish me best of luck fwens!! dalam hati sangat laa nebes mahu berdepan dengan sekitaran kerja yang baru, kawan-kawan baru dan juga cabaran baru... u can do it babeh...

myMetro | Melayu baca mantera Urdu

myMetro | Melayu baca mantera Urdu


LAPAR...Atikah gelojoh jamah makanan apabila dirasuk.



ya ampun.. tatot.. hooohh.. jin urdu jin tamil yang menetap di pohon depan umah dia mengamuk lepas pohon tu kena tebang... dah bnyak kali dia kena.. tp kenapakah mak dia tak bawa jumpa uztaz ke.. hooohhh.. meremang bulu roma...

:: much awake (mari membebel) ::

3:45 am.. and me still   0_0 .. mata tak mahu sleep after much crying layan emo and cter korea... huhhh...

someone is asking me kenapa me selalu tak tahu each tyme he asking me question.. humm.. adakah me tak mahu berusaha untuk baiki keadaan? or me sangat takut untuk berdepan dengan kenyataan?? mana satu yea?? (tak ada jawapan juga) -_-"  ... he told me too me kene berdepan dengan kenyataan, hadapi dengan kuat and tabah.. this is life.. lari wont solve my problem kan? said is easy  nk berdepan kenyataan tu yang maha payah!! and masaalah me yang tak mahu sleep, humm.. me rasa me selalu fikir.. fikir pekara-pekara yang mengarut.. yang membazir air mata and tenaga.. hummm.. selalu berharap mahu bangun pagi and rasa bersemangat!! sambil mamam sarapan nasi lemak and mulakan hari baru.. -_-"  ... lamanya tak rasa perasaan itu... pagi ni nak kemas bilik, nak main game sponge bob yang tinggal satu level je utk over, nak masak sambal udang (mengidam gila nak mamam sambal udang), nak main layang-layang, nak sambung tgk dvd cter korea, nk cuci en pooh... humm apa lg?? nak bermalas-malas sebelum mula bertugas.. tak sabar!! kesibukan buleh buat me lupa diri sekejap selain dari bershuping sakan... nak shuping pun dah shuping untuk bulan ni, tak buleh nak shuping selalu nanti tak ada duit nak mamam!! hummm.. -_-"

ok. malam tadi me wacthing this japan movie.. alaaa sedih nya.. mayb u gurls patut wacth this too.. about a gurl and a boy yang bercinta sejak they all masih kecil lagi.. tht boy ada sakit jantung.. and this gurl adalah doughter to his doc, and they make a promise sejak kecil to get married laa.. most touching part when this gurl menanis sepenuh jiwa raga to tuhan after she making a wish pada daun yang ada 4 kelopak bunga.. and her wish is granted.. tht boy live till he is 18, managed to fight each time he almost die because of their promise.. hummm.. sob sob.. habis sekotak tisu.. at the end... sila tgk sendiri ok apa kesudahan nya... but rasa tahap kesedihan nya tak sama like WINDSTRUCK movie... humm.. sila laa lihat and siap sedia dengan tisu sekotak dua.. (mesti lihat on saturday nite, sunday tak kerja so tak payah cover mata sembab)  -_-".. 

it came in two version korean and japan.. yang ni japan nye..

this is windstruck..

"if i die i wish i will be born again as a wind"

   

-_-"

me masih menanis each time watching this even da beribu kali tgk..

Murid Yang Kurang Ajar

hummm.. macam mana ni? rasa nya cekgu pun kena belajar lagi banyak-banyak ni handle anak murid.. kadang-kadang cekgu banyak membebel pun murid naik hanging gak.. kena laa jadi kawan bukan lawan.. baru faham apa masaalah.. haihh.. sebaik me bukan cekgu.. tahap kesabaran adalah sangat  nipis -_-" .. hopefully my adik angah and aboy wont b like this, jadi cekgu yang dihormati ok...

:: never too slow ::

never too slow,

never too fast,

to forget who are you..

this street is empty,

this soul is flying,

im dying

:: jika ::

jika punya pilihan membuat keputusan tanpa melukakan hati sesiapa,

jika punya masa yang panjang untuk semua,

jika masih mampu tersenyum..

:: hujung minggu ::

this week adalah sangat happy.. im spending some time for good dinner, swimming and jakuzi.. spending more money for shoping.. whooooohh... shupping mmg laa the best therapy for ppl like me.. -_-"  .. bought new pair of shoe (again) , sandal i love this sandal, sangat cool wif leopard print (berharap dapat jalan dengan cepat seperti leoprd too -_-"..   ), and 4 more piece of new dress and blouse. suka.. suka.. i was acctually looking for kain ela for a new cheongsam, but no design yg cun.. semua print design baju raya.. haihh.. this week again beli durian.. but seems like me dah mula muak on it.. malam tadi mamam and the whole nite tak buleh sleep even aircond dah on paling low.. nasib baik ada li manggo, so tonite can eat maggo pula..
hummm... other story pula.. me decide to put a fullstop on relation wif some1 after a month of trying to fixed and understand him.. kira kekasih gelap laa ni.. humm.. apa pun, if u at my place if a guy (a malay guy), said to u, "tak payah laa hantaran-hantaran ni, membazir" memang laa kena reject ok.. then boleh lagi said "if kawen tak payah laa buat kenduri" ... hurhh.. kau ingat me anak patung ke apa? tak ada mak bapak.. nak kata me mata duitan kata laa.. i dunt mind either sebab if awal-awal lagi dh cakap macam ni, nampak sangat laa u bukan seorang yang bertanggung jawab..
then mesti ada punya laa mulut-mulut kepoh yang akan tanya "eh kau masih lagi dengan budak singh tu?" yup.. masih lagi.. jawapan ni also ditujukan wat my mak kat kampung (for sure she will asking me after c my fb profile pic).. lebih baik laa me focus wif him dari membazir masa dengan manusia sebangsa tapi tak faham bahasa ni.. ok after this jangan tanya lgi to me, kawan dengan siapa ok.. and yang juga rasa her bf gatal wif me, or me kacau her bf, ni hah me dah letak pic of my darling.. (at my fb) ...
humm.. tinggal lagi 3 hari before mula "bertugas".. -_-"  .. berharap everything will b fine..

sandal leopard itu

:: berakhirnya perjuangan sahabat jauh me ::

hummm.. takziah dan alfatihah.. atas kehilangan beliau.. seorang sahabat jauh.. yang berpantang ajal melawan maut selama 2 bulan sebelum dijemput pulang ke pangkuan Ilahi lewat petang tadi.. hummm.. pulang sudah seorang lagi anak adam ke pangkuan maha pencipta.. moga roh beliau ditempatkan di kalangan kekasih-kekasih ilahi.. amin..

Berita Harian Online | Tuala wanita dalam rahim

Berita Harian Online | Tuala wanita dalam rahim



OMG.. sungguh careless... nasib baik laa dia g wat pemeriksaan awal.. haih..

:: cerita seorang kawan baru ::

OMG... today..seorang hamba tuhan tu ask me my no at my fb... many times before too.. and me memang tak pernah give my no. then tiba-tiba..... jeng jeng... he buzz me again.. oh my his gf lak this time log in as him... telling me dont wory she is not angry wif me.. OMG.. sudah jadi drama minggu ini pula.. dia sedih her bf do like this to her.. memang tak dinafikan her bf sedikit noty yea.. she said her bf baru nk kenal dunia fb ni.. hummm.. faham perasaan dia... susah kan lelaki ni.. tak pernah cukup dengan satu gf.. kenapa yea suka buat macam ni? she said dia yang salah sebab tak pandai jaga her bf nya perasaan.. ohh my dear gurl, u must let him noe what is ur feeling bila dia buat macam ni.. nanti he pijak kepala u.. love, cinta.. is a heart bonding from 2 soul, 2 heart.. if tak kongsi perasaan apa guna realation kan? hummm.. kepada all gurl, kita mesti hati-hati dengan alam maya ni.. dont u ever give ur no unless u really noe the person.. ambil ikhtibar ok dari cerita i.. haihh.. kesian that gurl.. like what she said, even i x layan her bf flirt, but he will flirt wif other gurl lak.. hoohhh.. jangan sesekali rosak kan hubungan orang lain!! hummm..

:: sabar ::

im not in good mood either in good shape this few days.. lost tak tahu ke mana.. semua seems blurr sahaja.. huhhh... life is not easy huh? nuthing much we can do selain sabar, yup sabar itu separuh dari iman.. mohon me dilkuatkan iman.. amin..ive got my training schedule ready.. humm.. no class sat and sunday.. semua from 9am to 6pm.. huhhhhhhh.. then me will start at bank.. macam tak ready pula..
ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.. rindu mak.. rindu adik..

:: pegang tangan aku kuat-kuat ::

pegang tangan aku kuat-kuat,

sebelum aku terlepas jauh..

pegang tangan aku kuat-kuat,

sebelum aku lupa siapa kau..

pegang tangan aku kuat-kuat,

sebelum aku hilang sayang buat kau..

pegang tangan aku kuat-kuat,

sebelum aku tahu siapa kau..

pegang tangan aku kuat-kuat,

sebelum aku hilang hormat buat kau..

pegang tangan aku kuat-kuat,

sebelum aku hilang cinta buat kau..

pegang tangan aku kuat-kuat,

sebelum

aku

pergi

tinggalkan

kau

.....

....

...

..

.

:: hujan batu ::

this morning, me lihat hujan batu (ais) at my home  for a first time in my life!! only half of my house sahaja yg hujan.. OMG.. memang me jakun.. -_-" .. ais tu besar gak la.. hujan ais tu berhenti betul-betul after azan subuh habis.. maha kuasa tuhan pencipta alam...
then this morning juga me dapat email dari hr, my commencement date 5 august 2010.. syukran.. another good news.. call my mak and nenek today.. semua sihat.. up date baju kuurng raya dah ada 2 pasang ok.. -_-"  ..

:: u and me ::

u and me,

both are living in this relation,

u and me,

both are living to joy this relation,

this life are very strange,

some relation dont even have a name...

:: pada dia ::

pada dia,

yang merampas lena..

pada dia,

yang mencuri hati..

pada dia,

yang membawa rindu..

 pada dia,

akhirnya cinta bermusim..

:: zaman muda remaja di esplanade ::

while flipping thru, found this pic..

owhh my missed oldy time..