Wednesday, June 30, 2010
:: bukan senang untuk memaafkan ::
memang me kecewa, memang me marah, memang me sakit hati! but me rasa, memaafkan adalah the best way to ease this pain.. memang bukan senang nk maafkan apatah lagi melupakan.. but bila kita marah or berdendam, it just make me think more about him.. payahlaa kn, hati pun x senang.. when i talk to my dear close gf about this, she ask me to remove, delete everything that reminds me to him.. but i cant! she said all this will make me more difficult to forget about him.. then when im alone and fkirkan all this, this hurt feeling wont go away just by trowing, delete or remove benda-benda yang berkaitan about him.. me mesti terima dengan redha.. and me perlu maafkan dia.. biarkn masa ubat segalanya (jiwang seh -_-".. ) biarkan hati kita bersih dari segala dendam.. biarkan hati kita jauh dari segala unsur negative.. me harap me will remain positive as long as i can! yup!! mudahan... just tutup mata and take a deep breath in... just maafkan.. and slowly u will feel apa pun yang terjadi for sure ada hikmah nya...
myMetro | Buang atas daun pisang
myMetro | Buang atas daun pisang
pun buang anak gak.. yang ni lagi laa.. mak sedara tolong SIMPAN kn lg.. haiii apalah nk jadikan..
pun buang anak gak.. yang ni lagi laa.. mak sedara tolong SIMPAN kn lg.. haiii apalah nk jadikan..
myMetro | Bayi menggigil
myMetro | Bayi menggigil
hummm... another case buang anak.. alahai.. besok dh tua jgn salah kn anak-anak pulak if diaorang kena buang ke rumah orang tua! apa lah nk jadi now days dengan masyarakat? me bukan nk bg statement yg x baik or like comparism.. at singapore (or maybe other country pn) condom tu bukan sesuatu yang memalukan.. boleh beli dekat farmasi or kedai.. kat malaysia condom tu sesuatu yang agak tertutup or tak patut we talk about.. hummm.. apatah lg isu pendidikan seks yang entah la.. macam hangat-hangat taik ayam je.. bila isu buang anak meningkat mcm cendawan lepas hujan mula laa macam-macam solution dibentangkan, but tindakan..... . seks luar nikah memang salah.. then buang anak lagi laah salah! if agak-agaknye mereka-mereka yang buat dan buang anak ni tahu or belajar tentang education of sexs agak nya mereka-mereka ni terberanak tak? hummmm.. dah namapun manusia.. dah bodoh tak nak belajar.. geram lahh aku ngn orang ynag buang anak ni!!
hummm... another case buang anak.. alahai.. besok dh tua jgn salah kn anak-anak pulak if diaorang kena buang ke rumah orang tua! apa lah nk jadi now days dengan masyarakat? me bukan nk bg statement yg x baik or like comparism.. at singapore (or maybe other country pn) condom tu bukan sesuatu yang memalukan.. boleh beli dekat farmasi or kedai.. kat malaysia condom tu sesuatu yang agak tertutup or tak patut we talk about.. hummm.. apatah lg isu pendidikan seks yang entah la.. macam hangat-hangat taik ayam je.. bila isu buang anak meningkat mcm cendawan lepas hujan mula laa macam-macam solution dibentangkan, but tindakan..... . seks luar nikah memang salah.. then buang anak lagi laah salah! if agak-agaknye mereka-mereka yang buat dan buang anak ni tahu or belajar tentang education of sexs agak nya mereka-mereka ni terberanak tak? hummmm.. dah namapun manusia.. dah bodoh tak nak belajar.. geram lahh aku ngn orang ynag buang anak ni!!
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
:: -_-" ::
Monday, June 28, 2010
:: aku rasa aku bodoh ::
yuki_1303: if kau layak dah lama pun aku kawen ngn kau
yuki_1303: blah uh
yuki_1303: aku x da mood nk ckp ngn kau lagi
yuki_1303: aku mmg kecewa ngn kau
yuki_1303: aku rasa sangat2 bodoh sebab aku maafkan kau semalam bila aku jumpa kau
yuki_1303: aku rasa bodoh yg sangat2 sebab aku cuba bg kau peluang sekali lg semalam...
yuki_1303: aku kecewa.. sangat2 kecewa..
: nur abg minta maaf
: tp abg tak buat salah selagi abg tak curang ngan nur
: kalau nur rase abg salah terpulanglah
: abg dah ckp ape yg abg nak ckp
: so nur buatlah keputusan
: abg tak tahan bergaduh ngan nur mcm ni
: hati abg tak sedap
: sekali lagi abg minta maaf
: i'll see u if u wanna see me again
: if not
: biarlah
apa yang me nk buat lg?? after me dah maafkan, then ulang lg salah yg sama?? heartless betul...
yuki_1303: blah uh
yuki_1303: aku x da mood nk ckp ngn kau lagi
yuki_1303: aku mmg kecewa ngn kau
yuki_1303: aku rasa sangat2 bodoh sebab aku maafkan kau semalam bila aku jumpa kau
yuki_1303: aku rasa bodoh yg sangat2 sebab aku cuba bg kau peluang sekali lg semalam...
yuki_1303: aku kecewa.. sangat2 kecewa..
: nur abg minta maaf
: tp abg tak buat salah selagi abg tak curang ngan nur
: kalau nur rase abg salah terpulanglah
: abg dah ckp ape yg abg nak ckp
: so nur buatlah keputusan
: abg tak tahan bergaduh ngan nur mcm ni
: hati abg tak sedap
: sekali lagi abg minta maaf
: i'll see u if u wanna see me again
: if not
: biarlah
apa yang me nk buat lg?? after me dah maafkan, then ulang lg salah yg sama?? heartless betul...
Sunday, June 27, 2010
:: ? ::
trying to get as much oxygen as i can!! so then my brain will work and think much more wisely or mayb more insane.. trying to do some outdoor thing and get myself a good treat! owhhhhh sunday....
Saturday, June 26, 2010
:: its hard when 2 people speak 2 different thing ::
its been a very hard week for me! very stressed out! much in tears, even sleep in tears too. it is hard for me when im different from others. when im speak different language, and when im not the choosen 1.. it is hard and tearing me when i need to sacrifice more and more but it seems not worth off for u.. ive been throu all this for 6 years and i feels like im not strong enuff to hold on this anymore.. i didnt ask much.. not even talk much.. didnt mean when im quite than im fine wif what u did.. yea words of bitch was really broke me down! and its hurt even more when u only listen to ur mom! man u r 30 years.. and yet u still much under ur sist and mom! do ever u ask me y did i spend more time myself, on my own world? do u want to listen to me? when it is about ur mom, about ur sist? did u ever try to c ur mom from view of mine? always trying to tell others that yea she good, my daughter is good, my bla blaa is good.. my bla and bla and bla... when she much pretending she care.. that she is the only one who noe how to do things right even way of doing instant pancake! if she noe she cant do certain things y dont she asked me to do that?.. y must she die hard to tell people especially u, that im not good.. sometime i feels like she just want to show off~~.. which is the best of her that i noe for this past 6 years.. yea i didnt said much.. really when it come to ur family matters cuz i noe who i am.. but in a second do u ever think who i am to u too? do u feels like im fine when ur sister telling me there is another girl waiting for u back at ur hometown! and when im crying like mad for that and u just quite.. silent.. dont u noe how much i loved u? when u put me aside just becouse of ur family did u ever think how hell im going throu it? most all do u ever try to give a comitment in our relation? hummmmmm.. do u care??
:: clean up ::
its saturday! it is weekend babe! cleaning my room! hoohhh from 11am to 5pm! hoooh must said theres a lot of dust -_-" .. change position of almari baju.. huh heavy.. me rasa me need more huge almari laaa! darl i need huge almari! then change here change there.. then.... OMG i do have pile of books on table and floor.. my book shelving already full! darl..... i need books shelving too!! yeaa im crazy about books and mag.. keep promise to myself no more mingguan wanita, no more doremon.. but i cant.. I CANT!!.. but books ilmu is worth of spend.. if dah habis baca u can pass to sister ke friends ke.. and u can even give it charity.. hummm.. so me put aside all the mag and thinking mayb to donate it.. sayang kan nk buang all this.. in fact i still have 2 huge boxes of books and comics in storeroom..
bad dog diary.. most funny book me ever bought! let my sist borrow but me take it back.. me love this book!
most new batch.. :)
i dunt noe when did i get this ujang...
this is so addicted.. and just want to keypoh my baby eayore.. and anak ku baby bath..
another stack of mingguan wanita.. and few pooh too.. weeeeee
im reading this hati kita now, thts y it is on floor -_-"
darl, i need another books shelving!!
humm... now get a shower and heading out for groceries market and do some weekly stock shopping.. and tom is SUNDAY babe!!! happy weekend.. (trying to fix my bad mood this sunday.. :).. )
Friday, June 25, 2010
::bad mood, bad hair, bad day ::
bila bangun, rasa lost gila! sungguh tak ada mood.. sungguh berang! sakit hati... rasa macam tak nak amik tahu even hal yang paling remeh! rasa macam tak kisah langsung! hooooooooooooooooooooooooooooh. mandi.. then huh.. rambut nih blow-blow tak gak ok! tercacak gak! mula menyumpah, napa me potong rambut pendek gila!... then rasa macam zombi.. tak ada perasaan! lantak lah... lantak lah....... tak kuasa.........
Thursday, June 24, 2010
:: my darl ::
u r like a piece of puzzle that complete me.. as a women.. as a person who understand u better day by day! love u darling! muwahhhh.
myMetro | Menangis minum racun
myMetro | Menangis minum racun
hummmm... careless nye! macam mana laa botol racun, ubat or detergent letak sepah-sepah? im not that good laa cara nk jaga anak or baby since me pon lom lagi bertawen and ada baby.. but guna la akal kn. JANGAN LETAK BOTOL BARANG BERACUN KAT ATAS LANTAI OR TEMPAT, PARA, ALMARI YANG SENANG DICAPAI KANAK-KANAK!..SIMPAN SEGALA RACUN DALAM STORE ROOM!!.. JANGAN SIMPAN CECAIR RACUN DALAM BEKAS MINUMAN LIKE MINERAL WATER BOTTLE!.. hummmm.. dah lah letak dalam botol yang maybe budak tu ingat mineral water. if kita dewasa maybe lah boleh bau yang cecair tu bukan air even TAK ADA LEBEL.. hummm.. apalagi boleh buat, benda dah jadi. so kita yang ada adik-adik kecik, anak-anak kecik after this check ok TERUTAMANYA KAWASAN DAPUR sebab kat sini laa paling selalu kita simpan benda-benda like detergent (tepi mesin basuh), then segala sabun cuci lantai laa dalam almari bawah sinki ke atau table top drawer kita TUTUP DENGAN PROPER.. kita BOLEH ELAKKAN KEMALANGAN ok!
hummm... emo pulak..
hummmm... careless nye! macam mana laa botol racun, ubat or detergent letak sepah-sepah? im not that good laa cara nk jaga anak or baby since me pon lom lagi bertawen and ada baby.. but guna la akal kn. JANGAN LETAK BOTOL BARANG BERACUN KAT ATAS LANTAI OR TEMPAT, PARA, ALMARI YANG SENANG DICAPAI KANAK-KANAK!..SIMPAN SEGALA RACUN DALAM STORE ROOM!!.. JANGAN SIMPAN CECAIR RACUN DALAM BEKAS MINUMAN LIKE MINERAL WATER BOTTLE!.. hummmm.. dah lah letak dalam botol yang maybe budak tu ingat mineral water. if kita dewasa maybe lah boleh bau yang cecair tu bukan air even TAK ADA LEBEL.. hummm.. apalagi boleh buat, benda dah jadi. so kita yang ada adik-adik kecik, anak-anak kecik after this check ok TERUTAMANYA KAWASAN DAPUR sebab kat sini laa paling selalu kita simpan benda-benda like detergent (tepi mesin basuh), then segala sabun cuci lantai laa dalam almari bawah sinki ke atau table top drawer kita TUTUP DENGAN PROPER.. kita BOLEH ELAKKAN KEMALANGAN ok!
hummm... emo pulak..
:: mari berangan ::
sewaktu me jalan-jalan kat blog sahabat me terjumpa la website yg leh wat muka ur future baby from pic f urs and bf ke hubby ke.. then me pon GATAL nk try gak.. then alahai.... funny.. dun noe how to describe.. rupa siapa.. gelak sudah..
yang ni muka ganas sebijik ikot muka beliau~ woooooooooooooh
yang ni?? hahahahaaa.. rambut merah ok!
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
:: betapa tuhan saja yang tahu how much i miss this smile ::
few pic snaps by my sist angah, huhhhhh meruntun jiwa to c a smile on face of my beloved adik-adik.. meeya and imi! memang sangat miss them! rasa macam semua yang dibuat serba x kena! asik ingat to them.. dear lil sist and bro of mine, meeya and imi, even thou along tak selalu balik and spend time wif u alls and banyak sangat yang along terlepas when u r growing, u all selalu dalam hati along. tak pernah even in a sec along lupa to this little smile!..
:: new books on shelve ::
:: scoliosis ::
Scoliosis (from Greek: skoliōsis meaning "crooked condition," from skolios, "crooked")[1] is a medical condition in which a person's spine is curved from side to side. Although it is a complex three-dimensional deformity, on an x-ray, viewed from the rear, the spine of an individual with a typical scoliosis may look more like an "S" or a "C" than a straight line. It is typically classified as either congenital (caused by vertebral anomalies present at birth), idiopathic (cause unknown, sub-classified as infantile, juvenile, adolescent, or adult according to when onset occurred) or neuromuscular (having developed as a secondary symptom of another condition, such as spina bifida, cerebral palsy, spinal muscular atrophy or physical trauma)
The signs of scoliosis can include:
Scoliosis is more often diagnosed in females. In some cases, scoliosis exists at birth due to a congenital vertebral anomaly. Occasionally, development of scoliosis during adolescence is due to an underlying anomaly such as a tethered spinal cord, but most often the cause is unknown or idiopathic, having been inherited through multiple factors, including genetics.[5] Scoliosis often presents itself, or worsens, during the adolescence growth spurt.
In April 2007, researchers at Texas Scottish Rite Hospital for Children[6] identified the first gene associated with idiopathic scoliosis, CHD7. The medical breakthrough was the result of a 10-year study and is outlined in the May 2007 issue of the American Journal of Human Genetics.[7] and is often performed on school students.) If a prominence is noted, then scoliosis is a possibility and the patient should be sent for an X-ray to confirm the diagnosis. Alternatively, a scoliometer may be used to diagnose the condition.[8] The patient's gait is assessed, and there is an exam for signs of other abnormalities (e.g., spina bifida as evidenced by a dimple, hairy patch, lipoma, or hemangioma). A thorough neurological examination is also performed.
It is usual, when scoliosis is suspected, to arrange for weight-bearing full-spine AP/coronal (front-back view) and lateral/sagittal (side view) X-rays to be taken, to assess the scoliosis curves and the kyphosis and lordosis, as these can also be affected in individuals with scoliosis. Full-length standing spine X-rays are the standard method for evaluating the severity and progression of the scoliosis, and whether it is congenital or idiopathic in nature. In growing individuals, serial radiographs are obtained at 3-12 month intervals to follow curve progression. In some instances, MRI investigation is warranted to look at the spinal cord.
The standard method for assessing the curvature quantitatively is measurement of the Cobb angle. The Cobb angle is the angle between two lines, drawn perpendicular to the upper endplate of the uppermost vertebrae involved and the lower endplate of the lowest vertebrae involved. For patients who have two curves, Cobb angles are followed for both curves. In some patients, lateral bending X-rays are obtained to assess the flexibility of the curves or the primary and compensatory curves.
Through a genome-wide association study, geneticists have identified single nucleotide polymorphism markers in the DNA that are significantly associated with adolescent idiopathic scoliosis. Fifty-three genetic markers have been identified. Scoliosis has been described as a biomechanical deformity, the progression of which is dependent on asymmetric forces otherwise known as the Heuter-Volkmann law.
The signs of scoliosis can include:
- Uneven musculature on one side of the spine
- A rib prominence and/or a prominent shoulder blade, caused by rotation of the ribcage in thoracic scoliosis
- Uneven hips / leg lengths
- Asymmetric size or location of breast in females
- Slow nerve action (in some cases)
Associated conditions
Scoliosis is sometimes associated with other conditions such as Ehler-Danlos syndrome (hyperflexibility, 'floppy baby' syndrome, and other variants of the condition), Charcot-Marie-Tooth, Prader-Willi syndrome, kyphosis, cerebral palsy, spinal muscular atrophy, muscular dystrophy, familial dysautonomia, CHARGE syndrome, Friedreich's ataxia, proteus syndrome, spina bifida, Marfan's syndrome, neurofibromatosis, connective tissue disorders, congenital diaphragmatic hernia, and craniospinal axis disorders (e.g., syringomyelia, mitral valve prolapse, Arnold-Chiari malformation).Cause
In the case of the most common form of scoliosis, adolescent idiopathic scoliosis, there is no clear causal agent and it is generally believed to be multifactorial. Genetics are believed to play a role. Various causes have been implicated, but none have consensus among scientists as the cause of scoliosis, though the role of genetic factors in the development of this condition is widely accepted.Scoliosis is more often diagnosed in females. In some cases, scoliosis exists at birth due to a congenital vertebral anomaly. Occasionally, development of scoliosis during adolescence is due to an underlying anomaly such as a tethered spinal cord, but most often the cause is unknown or idiopathic, having been inherited through multiple factors, including genetics.[5] Scoliosis often presents itself, or worsens, during the adolescence growth spurt.
In April 2007, researchers at Texas Scottish Rite Hospital for Children[6] identified the first gene associated with idiopathic scoliosis, CHD7. The medical breakthrough was the result of a 10-year study and is outlined in the May 2007 issue of the American Journal of Human Genetics.[7] and is often performed on school students.) If a prominence is noted, then scoliosis is a possibility and the patient should be sent for an X-ray to confirm the diagnosis. Alternatively, a scoliometer may be used to diagnose the condition.[8] The patient's gait is assessed, and there is an exam for signs of other abnormalities (e.g., spina bifida as evidenced by a dimple, hairy patch, lipoma, or hemangioma). A thorough neurological examination is also performed.
It is usual, when scoliosis is suspected, to arrange for weight-bearing full-spine AP/coronal (front-back view) and lateral/sagittal (side view) X-rays to be taken, to assess the scoliosis curves and the kyphosis and lordosis, as these can also be affected in individuals with scoliosis. Full-length standing spine X-rays are the standard method for evaluating the severity and progression of the scoliosis, and whether it is congenital or idiopathic in nature. In growing individuals, serial radiographs are obtained at 3-12 month intervals to follow curve progression. In some instances, MRI investigation is warranted to look at the spinal cord.
The standard method for assessing the curvature quantitatively is measurement of the Cobb angle. The Cobb angle is the angle between two lines, drawn perpendicular to the upper endplate of the uppermost vertebrae involved and the lower endplate of the lowest vertebrae involved. For patients who have two curves, Cobb angles are followed for both curves. In some patients, lateral bending X-rays are obtained to assess the flexibility of the curves or the primary and compensatory curves.
Genetic testing
Genetic testing for AIS, which has become available in 2009 and is still under investigation, attempts to gauge the likelihood of curve progression.Through a genome-wide association study, geneticists have identified single nucleotide polymorphism markers in the DNA that are significantly associated with adolescent idiopathic scoliosis. Fifty-three genetic markers have been identified. Scoliosis has been described as a biomechanical deformity, the progression of which is dependent on asymmetric forces otherwise known as the Heuter-Volkmann law.
:: sory, my love ::
to my mom, last sunday she came to jb.. but malang nya me x da kat jb! huhhh.. waste and geram sangat! mak datang ngn angah.. they spend time around dangga bay.. hurmm.. masih rasa terkilan tak dapat spend time ngan mak.. (-__-") ... rasa berdosa pun ada. mak asik tanya bila nk alik melaka. but me asik bz.. then mak dtg sampai ke jb pun me masih bz.. hummmm.. mak maaf yea.. sob sob sob.. meruntun jiwa betul bila rindu kat mak ni! ok enuff said... here some picture of my ratu hati...
picture yg disnap oleh angah!
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mak along minta maaf..