:: terapung ::

was awake by pain on my left shoulder -_-" .... sakit berdenyut-denyut.. now cant sleep anymore.. haiiihh...
today i had fun weekend! swimming session dr 8pm to 10.30.. jakuzi... blup blup.. not swimming actually sebab badan tak bergerak pun! more to terapung je.. weeeeeeee... (sebaik ada pelampung keras ya amat tu!)... ni la kan masaalah orang yang tak senaman ni, tu yang sengal je badan ni.. haiyooohhh... bergelak sakan, tenggelam timbul.. many thanks to dear friend of us, agilan and his gf sebab layan kami ni... his gf sampai sanggup ambil al just to teman us mandi manda... disebabkan lama jadi badak berendam, perut pun berbunyi-bunyi laa after that kan... we had a wonderful dinner at this famous restaurant at jb (cant recall the name) -_-" atas pokok... makan minum sampai laaa kedai tu nk tutup at 2.30am... ok badan dh penat.. perut pun dah full... alik tido adalah yang terbaik.... ada few snap tapi wif agilan laaa... will upload soon ok... tak larat lagi dah nak tulis... nasib baik ada muscle pain cream... -_-"

:: macam-macam hal ::

macam-macam hal lewat kebelakangan ni.. penat wehhhhh..... malas nk pikir... huhhhhh.. tak pikir lagi laa pening dengan segala masaalah ni... haiyooooh..

bertakhta di hati

weeeeeeee jiwang.... -_-"

:: half of the year ::

OMG... july... times realy fly yea.. its been half a year past! hummmm... look back at my new year resolutions.. woooooooo not even half done! can i add 1 more wishes?(if i could -_-" ) to reverse back time.. haiyohhh... lots of things to fix! since it already past half of year me mohon ampun dan maaf if ada sesiapa yang terasa or sakit hati disebabkan me .. thats all for tonite.. mood really easy to come and go even halfway writing! haisshhh.. nyte.. muwaahh.

:: rindu ::

while flipping thru my sist's album... my eye stop.. OMG.. i miss my lil sist so much, yea she look a bit skinny in this pic.. but her eye make me feel so desprado missed her! its been 2 month last i saw her.. hummm... meeya along mish u laa cyg..

:: bukan senang untuk memaafkan ::

memang me kecewa, memang me marah, memang me sakit hati! but me rasa, memaafkan adalah the best way to ease this pain.. memang bukan senang nk maafkan apatah lagi melupakan.. but bila kita marah or berdendam, it just make me think more about him.. payahlaa kn, hati pun x senang.. when i talk to my dear close gf about this, she ask me to remove, delete everything that reminds me to him.. but i cant! she said all this will make me more difficult to forget about him.. then when im alone and fkirkan all this, this hurt feeling wont go away just by trowing, delete or remove benda-benda yang berkaitan about him.. me mesti terima dengan redha.. and me perlu maafkan dia.. biarkn masa ubat segalanya (jiwang seh -_-".. ) biarkan hati kita bersih dari segala dendam.. biarkan hati kita jauh dari segala unsur negative.. me harap me will remain positive as long as i can! yup!! mudahan... just tutup mata and take a deep breath in... just maafkan.. and slowly u will feel apa pun yang terjadi for sure ada hikmah nya...

Fauziah Ahmad Daud : Kisah Cinta (HQ Audio)

myMetro | Buang atas daun pisang

myMetro | Buang atas daun pisang

pun buang anak gak.. yang ni lagi laa.. mak sedara tolong SIMPAN kn lg.. haiii apalah nk jadikan..

myMetro | Bayi menggigil

myMetro | Bayi menggigil


hummm... another case buang anak.. alahai.. besok dh tua jgn salah kn anak-anak pulak if diaorang kena buang ke rumah orang tua! apa lah nk jadi now days dengan masyarakat? me bukan nk bg statement yg x baik or like comparism.. at singapore (or maybe other country pn) condom tu bukan sesuatu yang memalukan.. boleh beli dekat farmasi or kedai.. kat malaysia condom tu sesuatu yang agak tertutup or tak patut we talk about.. hummm.. apatah lg isu pendidikan seks yang entah la.. macam hangat-hangat taik ayam je.. bila isu buang anak meningkat mcm cendawan lepas hujan mula laa macam-macam solution dibentangkan, but tindakan..... . seks luar nikah memang salah.. then buang anak lagi laah salah! if agak-agaknye mereka-mereka yang buat dan buang anak ni tahu or belajar tentang education of sexs agak nya mereka-mereka ni terberanak tak? hummmm.. dah namapun manusia.. dah bodoh tak nak belajar.. geram lahh aku ngn orang ynag buang anak ni!!

:: -_-" ::

weee.. today me ada test kat tiong bharu exam centre.. hummmm.. semangat datang kemain awal! 1 jam awal tu.. then ingat leh masuk campus ke g cafeteria ke lunch, sekali kena tahan daa ngn pak guard.. so pic ni adalah ilham me semasa me dok melangut selama sejam tepi luar exam center td.. sambil kira berapa banyak daun jatuh, berapa banyak kereta lalu.... -_-"... hummmm... dah laa tengah kalut kn dengan prob, tiba-tiba today ada pulak iq test! haduiiiiiiiiii.... sebaik iq mahupun akal masih ditahap waras!.. nothing laa yang nk dikatakn tentang exam ni.. hummmm.. buleh je buat td.. result 2 minggu baru keluar.. cepat-cepat lah habis semua class and exam nih! mahu mula kerja and dapat gaji supaya buleh shupping dengan suka hati tanpa membuat kira-kira! (raya tinggal 2 bulan je nih!)... today rasa penat sangat! mayb tito lewat then mangun awal kut.. hummmm..

:: aku rasa aku bodoh ::

yuki_1303: if kau layak dah lama pun aku kawen ngn kau
yuki_1303: blah uh
yuki_1303: aku x da mood nk ckp ngn kau lagi
yuki_1303: aku mmg kecewa ngn kau
yuki_1303: aku rasa sangat2 bodoh sebab aku maafkan kau semalam bila aku jumpa kau
yuki_1303: aku rasa bodoh yg sangat2 sebab aku cuba  bg kau peluang sekali lg semalam...
yuki_1303: aku kecewa.. sangat2 kecewa..


: nur abg minta maaf
: tp abg tak buat salah selagi abg tak curang ngan nur
: kalau nur rase abg salah terpulanglah
: abg dah ckp ape yg abg nak ckp
: so nur buatlah keputusan
: abg tak tahan bergaduh ngan nur mcm ni
: hati abg tak  sedap
: sekali lagi abg minta maaf
: i'll see u if u wanna see me again
: if not
: biarlah



apa yang me nk buat lg?? after me dah maafkan, then ulang lg salah yg sama?? heartless betul...

:: ? ::

trying to get as much oxygen as i can!! so then my brain will work and think much more wisely or mayb more insane.. trying to do some outdoor thing and get myself a good treat! owhhhhh sunday....

:: its hard when 2 people speak 2 different thing ::

its been a very hard week for me! very stressed out! much in tears, even sleep in tears too. it is hard for me when im different from others. when im speak different language, and when im not the choosen 1.. it is hard and tearing me when i need to sacrifice more and more but it seems not worth off for u.. ive been throu all this for 6 years and i feels like im not strong enuff to hold on this anymore.. i didnt ask much.. not even talk much.. didnt mean when im quite than im fine wif what u did.. yea words of bitch was really broke me down! and its hurt even more when u only listen to ur mom! man u r 30 years.. and yet u still much under ur sist and mom! do ever u ask me y did i spend more time myself, on my own world? do u want to listen to me? when it is about ur mom, about ur sist? did u ever try to c ur mom from view of mine? always trying to tell others that yea she good, my daughter is good, my bla blaa is good.. my bla and bla and bla... when she much pretending she care.. that she is the only one who noe how to do things right even way of doing instant pancake! if she noe she cant do certain things y dont she asked me to do that?.. y must she die hard to tell people especially u, that im not good.. sometime i feels like she just want to show off~~.. which is the best of her that i noe for this past 6 years.. yea i didnt said much.. really when it come to ur family matters cuz i noe who i am.. but in a second do u ever think who i am to u too? do u feels like im fine when ur sister telling me there is another girl waiting for u back at ur hometown! and when im crying like mad for that and u just quite.. silent.. dont u noe how much i loved u? when u put me aside just becouse of ur family did u ever think how hell im going throu it? most all do u ever try to give a comitment in our relation? hummmmmm.. do u care??

:: clean up ::

its saturday! it is weekend babe! cleaning my room! hoohhh from 11am to 5pm! hoooh must said theres a lot of dust -_-" .. change position of almari baju.. huh  heavy.. me rasa me need more huge almari laaa! darl i need huge almari! then change here change there.. then.... OMG i do have pile of books on table and floor.. my book shelving already full! darl..... i need books shelving too!! yeaa im  crazy about books and mag.. keep promise to myself no more mingguan wanita, no more doremon.. but i cant.. I CANT!!.. but books ilmu is worth of spend.. if dah habis baca u can pass to sister ke friends ke.. and u can even give it charity.. hummm.. so me put aside all the mag and thinking mayb to donate it.. sayang kan nk buang all this.. in fact i still have 2 huge boxes of books and comics in storeroom..

 bad dog diary.. most funny book me ever bought! let my sist borrow but me take it back.. me love this book!

                                                          most new batch.. :)

i dunt noe when did i get this ujang...

 this is so addicted.. and just want to keypoh my baby eayore.. and anak ku baby bath..

another stack of mingguan wanita.. and few pooh too.. weeeeee

im reading this hati kita now, thts y it is on floor -_-"

darl, i need another books shelving!!

humm... now get a shower and heading out for groceries market and do some weekly stock shopping.. and tom is SUNDAY babe!!! happy weekend.. (trying to fix my bad mood this sunday.. :).. )

::bad mood, bad hair, bad day ::

bila bangun, rasa lost gila! sungguh tak ada mood.. sungguh berang! sakit hati... rasa macam tak nak amik tahu even hal yang paling remeh! rasa macam tak kisah langsung! hooooooooooooooooooooooooooooh. mandi.. then huh.. rambut nih blow-blow tak gak ok! tercacak gak! mula menyumpah, napa me potong rambut pendek gila!...  then rasa macam zombi.. tak ada perasaan! lantak lah... lantak lah....... tak kuasa.........

:: buka mata besar-besar ::

dont u c im married ??

:: my darl ::

u r like a piece of puzzle that complete me.. as a women.. as a person who understand u better day by day! love u darling! muwahhhh.

myMetro | Menangis minum racun

myMetro | Menangis minum racun

hummmm... careless nye! macam mana laa botol racun, ubat or detergent letak sepah-sepah? im not that good laa cara nk jaga anak or baby since me pon lom lagi bertawen and ada baby.. but guna la akal kn. JANGAN LETAK BOTOL BARANG BERACUN KAT ATAS LANTAI OR TEMPAT, PARA, ALMARI YANG SENANG DICAPAI KANAK-KANAK!..SIMPAN SEGALA RACUN DALAM STORE ROOM!!.. JANGAN SIMPAN CECAIR RACUN DALAM BEKAS MINUMAN LIKE MINERAL WATER BOTTLE!.. hummmm.. dah lah letak dalam botol yang maybe budak tu ingat mineral water. if kita dewasa maybe lah boleh bau yang cecair tu bukan air even TAK ADA LEBEL.. hummm.. apalagi boleh buat, benda dah jadi. so kita yang ada adik-adik kecik, anak-anak kecik after this check ok TERUTAMANYA KAWASAN DAPUR sebab kat sini laa paling selalu kita simpan benda-benda like detergent (tepi mesin basuh), then segala sabun cuci lantai laa dalam almari bawah sinki ke atau table top drawer kita TUTUP DENGAN PROPER.. kita BOLEH ELAKKAN KEMALANGAN ok!

hummm... emo pulak..

:: mari berangan ::

sewaktu me jalan-jalan kat blog sahabat me terjumpa la website yg leh wat muka ur future baby from pic f urs and bf ke hubby ke.. then me pon GATAL nk try gak.. then alahai.... funny.. dun noe how to describe.. rupa siapa.. gelak sudah..

yang ni muka ganas sebijik ikot muka beliau~ woooooooooooooh

yang ni?? hahahahaaa.. rambut merah ok!

:: my mom and me ::

Fauziah Ahmad

mak pun ralat.jauh dtg harap dapat pluk anak montel mak...

6 hours ago · 

Yuki Mika

haiyohhh. ralat sangat! maaf yea mak..

20 minutes ago · 

mom komen pasal dia dtg jb and im not aroud
mak along minta maaf..