Monday, August 30, 2010

:: hey u! ::

hey u,
yang berjaya mencuri hati i!!  -_-"  hooooooohhh... terima kasih for all of ur care and concern all this month long.. when i need most of ur time just to listen me crying and mumbling... when most of days in week im lost in swing mood.. when everyday complaining and u as always, "sabar syg, u jangan nanis" ... when each time asking me if i had my meals on time when im too bz wif class and test.. yup.. terima kasih berjuta-juta!..


Saturday, August 28, 2010

:: stress alarm!! ::

hoooh! this last week merupakan minggu yang sangat stress buat me! caught in tight class.. test yang semakin susah.. dia yang jauh ( kena tulis juga ke?).. raya yang tak dapat cuti.. 1st day at bank will b so soon! (31 ogos).. me actually not ready in mental.. sangat takut, if i cant deliver my job as what i learn from class! he said i always think too much of it.. and then i will cry.. -_-" OMG.. sangat susah hati..
hummm... sudah dapat 1st salary.. hooyeh.. kerana sangat stress kan.. (alasan untuk mengurangkan rasa guilty!) semalam telah membawa diri dan hati yang duka lara, membeli belah @ aka shuping sepasang 2 pasang kasut! hohooo.. yea shuping manage to bring back my smile as always! hooooooo.. telah membeli 2 pasang kasut hitam.. tak tahu kenapa mahu warna hitam.. both are black.. when me back at home and lihat my shoes rack.. ohh sudah penuh! sudah macam imelda marcos! ketagih kasut! -_-" tapi tak ada banyak kasut hitam pun.. (alasan juga untuk mengurangkan rasa guilty!) -_-"  .. had a gud lunch too wif olivia and felice at the cafe cartel! hoooh.. sangat yummy and affordable! ..
today is saturday.. melepak di rumah menonton cartoon.. and mahu juga ke sallon petang nanti dan memotong rambut yang sudah panjang ini.. rasa malas sungguh.. mahu gulung-gulung lagi dalam shimot.. -_-" 

 this is what i ate.. mexicon pasta wif baked  chicken wif rodeo sauce!
seafood platter for olivia and felice!
 mushroom soup wif free flow bread!
hohohooo! pandai kan me buat bunga!

Thursday, August 26, 2010

myMetro | Tergamam leher terkulai

myMetro | Tergamam leher terkulai

DITENTERAM...adik-beradik mangsa ditenteramkan saudara-mara selepas adik mereka  berumur tiga tahun disembelih bapa sendiri  di rumah, semalam.
DITENTERAM...adik-beradik mangsa ditenteramkan saudara-mara selepas adik mereka berumur tiga tahun disembelih bapa sendiri di rumah, semalam.
TAHAN...suspek  membunuh kanak-kanak tiga tahun ditahan polis.
TAHAN...suspek membunuh kanak-kanak tiga tahun ditahan polis

semakin banyak masaalah mental dikalangan rakyat malaysia.. kesian kanak-kanak itu.. humm, ajal maut ditangan tuhan, tragisnya berakhir ditangan bapa sendiri.. :(

Sunday, August 22, 2010

myMetro | Ibu, bapa hilang

myMetro | Ibu, bapa hilang


ISI HATI...tujuh daripada sembilan beradik melukis kad hari raya  merayu kepulangan ibu bapa sempena Aidilfitri tahun ini.
ISI HATI...tujuh daripada sembilan beradik melukis kad hari raya merayu kepulangan ibu bapa sempena Aidilfitri tahun ini.

Saturday, August 21, 2010

:: perlu menjaga tatatertib!! ::

yup, sangat perlu! tak bermaksud i was far away from mak abah and im not in malaysia me sudah melupakan moraliti me! geram dengan sebilangan manusia ni! tak kisah laa apa pun ur race, warna kulit or ur language and sekaya mana pun u r if moral adalah ZERO then u r nuthing okeh! nuthing... adakah moraliti me di judge berdasarkan bahasa me? yea me banyak cakap "london" most of time, but itu adalah kerana sekitaran kerja me, bukan nya me "wanna be" okeh!! tak bermaksud juga me pakai skirt most of time, u can touch me okeh!! sungguh menyakitkan hati dengan manusia jenis nih! WTH... okeh tak mahu maki-maki... tarik nafas hembus nafas... -________________-"

:: another week is over ::

masa berlalu denagn sangat pantas yea.. sekejap dah 2 minggu training.. rasa macam tak cukup lagi masa untuk revise semula semua 16 topic sebelum skills app test! haiyohhh... sangat nebes dan gubra memikirkan hal skills app tets itu.. dalam kepala ni masih kosong lagi.. macam mana ni? if failed skills app tak mahu lagi ulang traning nih! hummm... minggu depan jadual sememangnya sangat padat.. tinggal few module to finish. PGI and BGI.. (buku yang sangat tebal untuk dibaca!) ... this last 2 weeks me sangat bz.. balik umah letih.. mandi terus sleep.. tak ada masa langsung nk belek blog.. apatah lagi nk bg ayam itik makan kat farmville!! -_-"
another 2 weeks more dah nk raya.. jiran sebelah suka main bunga api!! suka tengok budak-budak main bunga api, teringat zaman kecik kami! bila tiba raya abah selalu belikan kami adik beradik bunga api.. then arwah pakcik murad pun selalu beli kn bunga api.. ( rindu kat arwah pak cik murad) ... selalu main bunga api yang batang besi  and kertas merah putih tu.. hohohoo... pernah kaki melecur sebab terpijak besi bunga api yang panas! main atas simen depan umah, cucuh dekat pokok bunga mak!! hohoho.. then abes laa lantai pun bertanda.. manis nya zaman kanak-kanak... -_-" .. semalam coll mak and adik.. adik meeya tanya bila nk balik, dia nk ajak main bunga api!! alahai adik meeya... kalau laa buleh balik, tiap minggu along balik dik oii.. -_-" cepat betul masa berlalu.. rasa macam baru semalam tapi dah berminggu..

Sunday, August 15, 2010

::minggu ini::

hati rasa sangat sebak today.. semua rasa serba tak kena.. fikiran kalut.. hummm... life is not easy.. semalam, when im out doing my groceries, terjumpa seorang pak cik tua.. ya tuhan hati rasa macam luruh sangat.. he look so daif.. in baju old baju melayu, maybe after teraweh.. holding a basket in hand.. beli barang too... i look in his basket. ada 2 3 tin canned drinks, roti.. in a Q masa nak bayar.. i smiled to this pakcik.. and he return back my smile and asking "dari singapura ke?", maybe sebab my trolly penuh.. then me said nop laa.. this pakcik sangat ramah.. he said "tadi orang bg sedekah dekat masjid tu yang dapat beli barang buat sahur ni.." OMG.. luluh nya hati me.. pak cik sahur roti je.. rasa mahu menangis masa tu juga.. teringat kat mak abah kat kampung.. me bayarkan segala barang pakcik tu.. dengan harapan if it happen to me or ahli keluarga me, ada la juga insan lain yang tolong.. hummm... mungkin hari ni kita senang, esok lusa kita tak tahu.. andai tuhan nak ambil segala kesenangan kita, sekelip mata pun boleh terjadi.. ya tuhan maha pemurah lagi maha pengasih, lindungilah kami sekeluarga dari segala musibah... amin .. and kampung me dilanda ribut puting beliung.. 3 maut.. banyak nya dugaan yang tuhan nk tunjukkan di bulan ramadhan ni..  sehari suntuk me termenung.. apa yang tuhan nak tunjukkan..  rasa terkilan pun ada.. banyak nya yang me terlepas pandang dalam kehidupan seharian me.. betapa me tak bersyukur atas segala nikmat yang tuhan bagi pada me.. -_-"

Saturday, August 14, 2010

:: mari bekerja ::

memang me keletihan.. sangat letih.. kaki macam nak tercabut.. tangan macam nak tercicir.. hummm.. suasana tugas yang baru sangat mencabar emo me.. bangun seawal 5am and sampai umah seawal 9malam.. bangun matahari belum keluar balik pun matahari dah terbenam.. sampai umah memang dah tak ada selera nak mamam.. mandi terus sleep. sometime tak sleep langsung if perlu berjaga sepanjang malam baca notes untuk test.. selalu laa juga sakit belakang.. mak complain me lama tak call her.. -_-" maaf mak.. selalu sangat dah bagi alasan sama setiap kali mak tanya kenapa lama tak call her.. hummm...

Monday, August 9, 2010

:: masih ::

kita masih mencari sesuatu yang tak pasti,
sesuatu yang tak tentu milik kita,
sesuatu yang tak dijanjikan untuk kita,
dan kita masih lagi berhempas pulas mencari,
kerana percaya kita punya kekuatan.

::: Malaysian woman fails to reverse Muslim conversion ::

Malaysian woman fails to reverse Muslim conversion

KUALA LUMPUR, Malaysia – A Malaysian woman lost a court battle Wednesday to nullify her conversion to Islam when she was a child, but vowed to fight on to be recognized as a Hindu.
The interfaith dispute could further anger non-Muslims who have long complained that their religious rights are being sidelined in Muslim-majority Malaysia, and may erode minority support for the government.
Malaysia's secular High Court ruled it had no jurisdiction to hear the case as Banggarma Subramaniam is a Muslim and should refer to the Islamic Shariah court, said her lawyer Gooi Hsiao Leung.
Banggarma has said she and her three siblings were under the care of a government orphanage in northern Penang state when she was converted to Islam by welfare officials in 1989 when she was seven years old.
She ran away when she was 16 and got married two years later in 2001 in a traditional Hindu ceremony. When she returned to the home to collect her identity card and other documents, she was given the Muslim conversion certificate which listed her name as Siti Hasnah Vanga-rama Abdullah.
She has been unable to register her marriage or name her husband as the father of their two children in their birth certificates as she is listed a Muslim. Banggarma's husband must convert to Islam to legally wed her as marriage between Muslims and non-Muslims is not allowed in the country.
Banggarma said she was disappointed with the court ruling and planned to take the case to the Appeals Court.
"Why must I be forced to accept Islam?" Banggarma said. "I was born an Indian, a Hindu and I remain so until I die. They have no rights over me."
The welfare department claims Banggarma was converted in 1983 by her father and that she must go to the Shariah court to verify her status.
Gooi, however, said her conversion certificate was dated 1989 and that under Penang Islamic laws, minors below 18 cannot be converted to Islam without the consent of their parents.
Malaysia has a dual court system with civil courts for non-Muslims and Shariah courts for Muslims. In interfaith disputes involving Islam, the Shariah courts typically get the last word, which has upset non-Muslims who fear they cannot get justice in such courts.
If she renounces Islam, Banggarma risks being charged with apostasy, which in Malaysia _ as in many Islamic nations _ is regarded as a crime punishable by fines and jail sentences. Offenders are often sent to prison-like rehabilitation centers.
Minorities are increasingly becoming worried that their rights have become subordinate to those of ethnic Malay Muslims, who form nearly 60 percent of Malaysia's 28 million people.
The unhappiness over racial discrimination erupted in an unprecedented street protest three years ago by tens of thousands of ethnic Indians. The demonstration emboldened the minorities into voting against the government, which returned to power with its worst performance ever in the March 2008 general elections

:: tak sihat laaa ::

demam yang tak berapa best.. bz dan tak sempat nk update blog setiap hari... bernasib baik minggu ni cuti sampai isnin... ohh selamat hari ulang tahun singapore... -_-"    ... pinggang sakit ya ampun.. nk baring pun payah.. demam ni pula buat kepala rasa fenin dan berpusing, jumaat lepas hampir pitam otw alik umah.. keletetihan mungkin...tekak rasa pahit gila.. macam nk mamam yang manis like cendol ke? tapi suara pun dah tak ada ni.. haihhh.. ramadhan hampir tiba.. selamat berpuasa buat semua teman-teman..

alangkah best nya if ada dekat umah at kampung now.. buleh mamam mak masak.. tak adalah hari-hari nk mamam tiger cookies ngn horlick if tak ada selera mamam nasi..

Saturday, August 7, 2010

:: kehidupan sebagai masyarakat bank ::

adalah sangat susah... huhhhhhhhh.. fenin dan juga gubra memikirkan betapa banyak nya rules yang perlu diaplikasi.. haaiihhh.. frankly semalam sudah gagal dalam topic consumer banking product.. hanya laa  kurang 1 point untuk pass ke markah lulus.. hooohh.. maka on tuesday perlu retake lg... datang awal on tuesday at 8am hanya kerana perlu revise this topic.. (itu adalah sangat tidak best) ... dalam masa 16 hari training ada 16 topic untuk learn.. hohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.. 1 hari 1 topic!! file yang demoks and tebal itu mmg berjaya buat me nebes and maha gubra...

Thursday, August 5, 2010

:: hari pertama mula bertugas ::

wooohhh.. hari yang ditunggu telah tiba jua.. bangun pagi dengan penuh semangat. set alarm kul 5.30am, but 5.00am dah terjaga.. batapa semangat nya me... harap-harap buleh bangun like this after ni la... -_-"  .. bangun pagi gosok gigi minum kopi... hooooho.. but me tak minum coffe la.. me minum ho ho ho holick... ngn biskut tiger, supaya ada tenaga nanti (macam iklan dalam tv tu -_-" .. ) humm training mula pukul 9am at DBS ASIA HUB..me akan training for whole month antil 30 ogos and will start my job as customer service executive at POSB Heartland mall.. weeeeehooo... sudah mula bekerja and sudah laa buleh bershuping semula...  hummm... sila wish me best of luck fwens!! dalam hati sangat laa nebes mahu berdepan dengan sekitaran kerja yang baru, kawan-kawan baru dan juga cabaran baru... u can do it babeh...

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

myMetro | Melayu baca mantera Urdu

myMetro | Melayu baca mantera Urdu

LAPAR...Atikah gelojoh jamah makanan apabila dirasuk.
LAPAR...Atikah gelojoh jamah makanan apabila dirasuk.



ya ampun.. tatot.. hooohh.. jin urdu jin tamil yang menetap di pohon depan umah dia mengamuk lepas pohon tu kena tebang... dah bnyak kali dia kena.. tp kenapakah mak dia tak bawa jumpa uztaz ke.. hooohhh.. meremang bulu roma...

:: much awake (mari membebel) ::

3:45 am.. and me still   0_0 .. mata tak mahu sleep after much crying layan emo and cter korea... huhhh...
someone is asking me kenapa me selalu tak tahu each tyme he asking me question.. humm.. adakah me tak mahu berusaha untuk baiki keadaan? or me sangat takut untuk berdepan dengan kenyataan?? mana satu yea?? (tak ada jawapan juga) -_-"  ... he told me too me kene berdepan dengan kenyataan, hadapi dengan kuat and tabah.. this is life.. lari wont solve my problem kan? said is easy  nk berdepan kenyataan tu yang maha payah!! and masaalah me yang tak mahu sleep, humm.. me rasa me selalu fikir.. fikir pekara-pekara yang mengarut.. yang membazir air mata and tenaga.. hummm.. selalu berharap mahu bangun pagi and rasa bersemangat!! sambil mamam sarapan nasi lemak and mulakan hari baru.. -_-"  ... lamanya tak rasa perasaan itu... pagi ni nak kemas bilik, nak main game sponge bob yang tinggal satu level je utk over, nak masak sambal udang (mengidam gila nak mamam sambal udang), nak main layang-layang, nak sambung tgk dvd cter korea, nk cuci en pooh... humm apa lg?? nak bermalas-malas sebelum mula bertugas.. tak sabar!! kesibukan buleh buat me lupa diri sekejap selain dari bershuping sakan... nak shuping pun dah shuping untuk bulan ni, tak buleh nak shuping selalu nanti tak ada duit nak mamam!! hummm.. -_-"

ok. malam tadi me wacthing this japan movie.. alaaa sedih nya.. mayb u gurls patut wacth this too.. about a gurl and a boy yang bercinta sejak they all masih kecil lagi.. tht boy ada sakit jantung.. and this gurl adalah doughter to his doc, and they make a promise sejak kecil to get married laa.. most touching part when this gurl menanis sepenuh jiwa raga to tuhan after she making a wish pada daun yang ada 4 kelopak bunga.. and her wish is granted.. tht boy live till he is 18, managed to fight each time he almost die because of their promise.. hummm.. sob sob.. habis sekotak tisu.. at the end... sila tgk sendiri ok apa kesudahan nya... but rasa tahap kesedihan nya tak sama like WINDSTRUCK movie... humm.. sila laa lihat and siap sedia dengan tisu sekotak dua.. (mesti lihat on saturday nite, sunday tak kerja so tak payah cover mata sembab)  -_-".. 


it came in two version korean and japan.. yang ni japan nye..


this is windstruck..
"if i die i wish i will be born again as a wind"
   

-_-"
me masih menanis each time watching this even da beribu kali tgk..





Murid Yang Kurang Ajar



hummm.. macam mana ni? rasa nya cekgu pun kena belajar lagi banyak-banyak ni handle anak murid.. kadang-kadang cekgu banyak membebel pun murid naik hanging gak.. kena laa jadi kawan bukan lawan.. baru faham apa masaalah.. haihh.. sebaik me bukan cekgu.. tahap kesabaran adalah sangat  nipis -_-" .. hopefully my adik angah and aboy wont b like this, jadi cekgu yang dihormati ok...

Sunday, August 1, 2010

:: never too slow ::

never too slow,
never too fast,
to forget who are you..
this street is empty,
this soul is flying,
im dying

:: jika ::

jika punya pilihan membuat keputusan tanpa melukakan hati sesiapa,
jika punya masa yang panjang untuk semua,
jika masih mampu tersenyum..

:: hujung minggu ::

this week adalah sangat happy.. im spending some time for good dinner, swimming and jakuzi.. spending more money for shoping.. whooooohh... shupping mmg laa the best therapy for ppl like me.. -_-"  .. bought new pair of shoe (again) , sandal i love this sandal, sangat cool wif leopard print (berharap dapat jalan dengan cepat seperti leoprd too -_-"..   ), and 4 more piece of new dress and blouse. suka.. suka.. i was acctually looking for kain ela for a new cheongsam, but no design yg cun.. semua print design baju raya.. haihh.. this week again beli durian.. but seems like me dah mula muak on it.. malam tadi mamam and the whole nite tak buleh sleep even aircond dah on paling low.. nasib baik ada li manggo, so tonite can eat maggo pula..
hummm... other story pula.. me decide to put a fullstop on relation wif some1 after a month of trying to fixed and understand him.. kira kekasih gelap laa ni.. humm.. apa pun, if u at my place if a guy (a malay guy), said to u, "tak payah laa hantaran-hantaran ni, membazir" memang laa kena reject ok.. then boleh lagi said "if kawen tak payah laa buat kenduri" ... hurhh.. kau ingat me anak patung ke apa? tak ada mak bapak.. nak kata me mata duitan kata laa.. i dunt mind either sebab if awal-awal lagi dh cakap macam ni, nampak sangat laa u bukan seorang yang bertanggung jawab..
then mesti ada punya laa mulut-mulut kepoh yang akan tanya "eh kau masih lagi dengan budak singh tu?" yup.. masih lagi.. jawapan ni also ditujukan wat my mak kat kampung (for sure she will asking me after c my fb profile pic).. lebih baik laa me focus wif him dari membazir masa dengan manusia sebangsa tapi tak faham bahasa ni.. ok after this jangan tanya lgi to me, kawan dengan siapa ok.. and yang juga rasa her bf gatal wif me, or me kacau her bf, ni hah me dah letak pic of my darling.. (at my fb) ...
humm.. tinggal lagi 3 hari before mula "bertugas".. -_-"  .. berharap everything will b fine..


sandal leopard itu